I am trying not to think about how much Emma cried when they arrived back to Storybrooke, just the two of them. And the portal closes.
And how Emma just totally breaks down from sadness of leaving Henry. Pregnant hormones just intensifying the blow. And how Killian just holds her…
Tells her it will all be okay, as they walk back to their house. And he draws her a bath and makes her some hot cocoa. Then he fixes a lovely dinner for the two of them and turns on netflix to continue binge watching their favorite show…
As he rubs his hand through her hair and on her belly, Kissing her gently on the cheek and once again promising her it will be okay…
Headcanon that Ariel allows Killian to keep the shell, and that he keeps talking into it in hopes that something he says gets through to Emma (since he doesn’t know if she actually hears him or not). He mostly just keeps telling her how much he loves her and how hard he’s fighting to get home to her. Emma keeps her shell with her at all times and just listens, using it as motivation to do whatever it takes to bring him home.
I mean, Emma could wear hers on her right hand to match his, but I love the idea of it being on the traditional left so they do bump together when they hold hands.
And through the years they just get all scuffed up and scratched from the constant contact, and maybe one day Killian asks Emma if she’d like him to have them polished back up to a shine.
And she replies simply “Nope. I love them just as they are.”
Because all the scuffs just mean they are together. Always.
Oh well, my mind is begging me to talk about this scene, so there you go.
Look at this angsty motherfucker. He’s so downcast and scared and sad that he has to tell her. But Emma thinks all of that is his fear of proposing. She thinks he’s afraid she won’t say yes so incredibly excited as she is, she takes the step for him and shows him the ring.
Killian reassures her he can’t be mad at her and Emma just fucking opens up like she hasn’t opened up before.
Look at her. She’s basically ready to propose herself. She gives him the ring and smiles at him with tears in her eyes, waiting for him to propose. And Killian sees that. He sees how excited she is and he knew how she used to be. She was a lost girl with walls up, with fears and insecurities. Killian had seen right through them and was happy to help her overcome them.
And now he sees her honestly overcoming them, right in front of him.
The woman who was scared that a happy ending isn’t in the cards for her is now patiently waiting for him to propose to her. And that’s just GREATLY FUCKING HUGE for Emma Swan and he knowsthat. He knows how important that moment is for her and how hard she’s worked to allow herself that. To allow herself to hope in the future, a happy one, for both of them.
And I think that’s what makes him let go.
He’s happy for her, proud of her, eternally in love with her and he can’t simply ignore the huge step she took. So he kneels. (I mean fuck, even in their engagement Emma was the one who took the first step)
But look at him. His face just gives everything off. It’s like he gave himself up for her to judge and punish him, as if he’s at her complete mercy. He knows, oh Heavens above, he knows how fucked up this all is but he can’t just tell her the truth now that she literally brought down all of her walls. She deserves that. A happy proposal, even if it turns bitter later. Because she was the one to walk out on him, he always stayed. If he walked out on her now, it would break her.
Yes, that’s what she deserves. Not some coward running away right when she’s finally over her fears.
And God damn it she is so happy it makes me wanna cry.
The lost girl found home. The home she chose to have, with a pirate who will never stop fighting for her happiness. And to her it’s just that moment where she can finally lean back and say “It’s finally over” and start living her happy ending/beginning. And he sees that.
He’s happy for her, that even for a little while, she got what she deserved so much. Until he thinks about how little he deserves that.
That he can’t have that. He doesn’t want to have that, not like that.
*Takes deep breath* This is probably gonna be another lengthy one.. I’m sorry!
WARNING: It’s really long and angsty (obviously lol)
i want to start with this shot.
Nimue’s just began choking Emma.
Killian is still replaying that memory of his father’s murder in his head.
He’s zoned out, trying to keep his mind on the pain that’s coursing through him. He’s letting the darkness completely take him because Killian Jones has nothing left.
And he looks up at her – and you can see he’s trying to hold on to that pain and anger, trying to tell himself that this is justified.
This is what happens when someone you love hurts you in the most unimaginable way.
He’s probably thinking this is just like the situation with his father – someone he loves has used him once again for their selfish gain. Left him as a slave for someone else’s use.
He’s forcing himself not to care, because he’s done. He’s hurt and betrayed and he’s got nothing else left other than the thing that’s kept him company for centuries. Revenge.
But he can’t do it.
He can’t bear to see Emma in pain.
This isn’t the same as Brennan. This is nowhere near the same.
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